Post by James on Dec 26, 2005 16:23:47 GMT -5
I may as well start as it looks like no one else will.
Well I'm male 17 and from Leeds. first things first do u think our anxiety and fear of embarrassment is connected to our sexuality or its just coincidence, i know mine is.
every time i have to go shopping or to friends or school or anywhere the first thing think about is if anything in my behavior will give away that I'm gay, whether it be the way i talk or act or whatever. i try to accept myself for what i am but no matter how hard i try i cant quite get to that place in my mind. Ive not come out yet and hope that when i do things will change cos then i will be able to be myself.
i am too self conscious and care to much what people think about me. i used to get bullied and although that was years ago and nothing to do with my sexuality mostly it seems to have manifested itself in me thinking that i sound different from everyone else. the problem is i actually have no idea - i cant just go up to some one and ask "do i sound gay to u???" but that reassurance would make such a difference to me.
I'm fine around girls usually but around guys i am quite bad at making conversation, one to one is usually fine if i relay try but a group of guys and i get relay anxious and end up getting relay hot and having to leave - i dont know weather that is because i could be attracted to them or weather its linked back to bullying cos that would always be guys or a mixture of the two.
did coming out help any one get over their SA or not, I'm hoping that it will make a big difference for me.
at the moment i feel relay isolated, being in one minority(SA) limits the number of like minded people but being in another (gay) makes it relay hard to meet people like myself, iv never met a gay person befor and have no idea how to find anyone. trouble is i wouldn't say i was a "typical" gay guy
to anyone still reading thanks, and any replies would be relay appreciated
PS anyone from Leeds, or York or harrogate or area if so would u like to meet up?? my email is j_wilson3.14@hotmail.com
Well I'm male 17 and from Leeds. first things first do u think our anxiety and fear of embarrassment is connected to our sexuality or its just coincidence, i know mine is.
every time i have to go shopping or to friends or school or anywhere the first thing think about is if anything in my behavior will give away that I'm gay, whether it be the way i talk or act or whatever. i try to accept myself for what i am but no matter how hard i try i cant quite get to that place in my mind. Ive not come out yet and hope that when i do things will change cos then i will be able to be myself.
i am too self conscious and care to much what people think about me. i used to get bullied and although that was years ago and nothing to do with my sexuality mostly it seems to have manifested itself in me thinking that i sound different from everyone else. the problem is i actually have no idea - i cant just go up to some one and ask "do i sound gay to u???" but that reassurance would make such a difference to me.
I'm fine around girls usually but around guys i am quite bad at making conversation, one to one is usually fine if i relay try but a group of guys and i get relay anxious and end up getting relay hot and having to leave - i dont know weather that is because i could be attracted to them or weather its linked back to bullying cos that would always be guys or a mixture of the two.
did coming out help any one get over their SA or not, I'm hoping that it will make a big difference for me.
at the moment i feel relay isolated, being in one minority(SA) limits the number of like minded people but being in another (gay) makes it relay hard to meet people like myself, iv never met a gay person befor and have no idea how to find anyone. trouble is i wouldn't say i was a "typical" gay guy
to anyone still reading thanks, and any replies would be relay appreciated
PS anyone from Leeds, or York or harrogate or area if so would u like to meet up?? my email is j_wilson3.14@hotmail.com